This life

There are too many reason why we are still alive..
1st of all, of course, we are still alive because of Allah's permission..
We are still alive because we have ours family's support..
We are still alive because we have ours bestfriend's support..
We are still alive because we have ours friend's support..

We are still alive because we have Allah, ours family, ours bestfriends, and ours friend.

But what will happen if we lose one of the reasons?

For me, the most important reason that I'm still alive is because of Allah..
Because of I believe in Allah, I'm still alive until now..
Because of I believe in Allah, I know if anything bad is going on, I can count on Him..
Because of I believe in Allah, I know eventhough life is hard for me today, there are others having a hard time too..
Because of I believe in Allah, I know even though I live far away from my family, I can survive under His blessing..

And everyday when I wake up in the morning,
I'm thankful to Allah because give me the chances to live..
The chances to improve myself..
The chances to make me near to Him..
The chances to make my family happy..
The chances to make my family proud..

Of course, I will not be alive if I lose Him..(nauzubillah!)

Beside that, I know I'm still alive because of my family with Allah's permission..
I can face hard times because of the supports they give me..
I can face everything because I know they always be with me,
whenever I need them..
I can be far away from them because I know,
They never stop praying for me..

And my life is nearly complete because of Him and my family..

This life also will never be hard for us if we have bestfriends and friends..
(Eventhough sometimes some of our friends make our life harder..)
I do need my bestfriends all the times..
They are the one who always make me smile even when I cry..
They are the one who I can count on if I have hard times..
They are the one who always there for me anytime (when I'm happy or not)..
They are the one who I can share everything..
They are the one who can lend me their shoulder when I want to cry..
They are the one who can hug me when I need it so much..
I can't imagine if I lose my bestfriend..
(Thanks to Allah for making them alive too..)

And how about friends??

I guess everyone in this world do need a friend..
Just imagine yourself without your friends around..
But I know, even though I lose some of them,
I will survive....
And I know, even though some of them are walking away from me,
There are always someone walks to me too...
And I also know, if there is a good-bye in friendship,
there is also a new meeting..
(But I always pray so that there is no good bye for me)

Life is about learning to live with peoples around us..
Life is about learning to accept peoples around us..
Life is about learning to accept other's weakness..
Life is about learning to improve ourselves..
Life is about learning to accept the imperfectness of yourself..
Life is about learning to forgive and forget..
Life is about learning everything...

And just some notes for you...

Don't ever leave someone just because of their imperfectness!!
Because you are not perfect at all....
(in fact, you CAN'T be perfect..)
Don't simply judge people around you..
(coz you don't have the right anyway)

If you leave your friends alone..
Trust me, someone will leave you to0...

And last but not least...
I'm still alive because I believe in Allah..
I'm still alive because I have my family..
I'm still alive because I have my bestfriends..
I'm still alive because I have my friends..

Without YOU(whoever makes my life harder), I'm still alive!!

(ape mimpi tulis lam english daa..hehehe..)

homesick homesick homesick

sy homesick!!

sy homesick!!

sy homesick!!

sy homesick!!

sy homesick!!

siyes sy rindu family saye daaa...
da 2mg family kat Japan..
so bile mereka2 balik, sungguh laa teramat rase 寂しい...
rs sunyi je umah...
balik bukak tv kuat2 po0on rase 寂しい..sedeyh!!
then bile igt2 balik, rase rindu pade mereka..
bile my family ckp, 'thanks a lot'..sy rase sedeyh!
biler sy salam ngan mama sy, sy hampir2 menanges..
mama cium pipi sy berkali2 menyebabkan sy menanges..
(but cover sbb depan adik beradik)
biler mereka masuk ke balai perlepasan, sy menanges lagi..
biler mereka melambai dr jauh, makin deras air mata sy..
sy po0n cepat2 lari dr airport..
duk kat service area dekat2 ngan airport 2jam lebey...
kononnye nak tgk flight mereka berlepas..
otak blank, air mate taleh nak stop berhenti
smp aa sy terlelap..
bgn2 je, trus sy drive balik..
yappa, sowang2 wat sy sedeyh +_+
perjalanan balik yg supposedly 1jam lebey jadik makin panjang
airmate deras je mengalir sepanjang perjalanan..
otak blank, taleh nak berpk..
smp sy drive g yokohama...
blur knape sy ade kat sini..
last2 baru tersedar yg sy tersesat..
then smp umah around kol 3..
fae call...makin teruk sy menanges..
masuk2 umah..tempat kasut da kosong..
umah sy da tade beg banyak2..
umah sy da tade baju banyak2 bergantungan da..
umah sy sunyi giler..
br sy sedar, umah sy nie luas rupenye..
tak thn duk umah lame2, sy larik umah fae..
pastu g ebina coz anta kete..
mata sy da sakit,n sungguh penat akibat nanges non-stop..
balik2 je sy trus tdo..tammo berpk n tanak berpk..

tapiiii...arini sy igt lagik...
biler pagi tadi cik hana call sy, sy menanges lagik..
smp tulis2 mende ni po0n sy menanges..
(walaupo0n kne cover2 sbb kat ken9 skang nie..)
aaaaa..tekanan perasaan sungguh!!

THEshortestBUTyetTHEsweetestMEMORIESever~!

kepulangan sy ke m'sia selame seminggu cukup meninggalkan pelbagai kenangan yg sungguh best n tak dpt dilupakan..sebenarnya tujuan utama pulang ke m'sia adalah menghadiri symposium yg diadakan di seri pacific KL selama 4 ari start selasa, 12hb 11.. makan free, tdo hotel 4 star (ke 5 star? tahlaa..kurang pasti), with membe2 yg same2 join, tambah lagi ditemani oleh my beloved cousin dan deela..mmg byk menda yg best waktu symposium ini walaupo0n sy taleh jawab soalan mase presentation..(da agak daa...sensei po0n kate soalan yg dtanye tu semua susah2..) lepas habis presentation,my uncle and my big bro fetch kat hotel, n because my lecturer ajak dinner, so pergilah kami berdinner somewhere far away from hotel..then after dinner, my uncle dgn baik atinyee bawak kami jalan2 menikmati keindahan malam d KL..(walaupo0n keyabaian lambat balik ke seremban..) after anta sensei balik hotel, kami po0n pulang n sbb kepenatan yg teramat, sy tertdo lam kereta all da way back to seremban..

• menu banquet MJISAT.. kekenyangan btul..

• me, deela, yin, n hana di bilik den..nk mkn satay yg parents den bawak~~
  

next day(khamis), g balik KL tuk bawak sensei jalan2..ditemani oleh my big bro (seb baek die rajin je melayan kerenah adiknye nie..), kami po0n g kl tower, klcc n jua CM tuk bli souveniers.. Rupe2nye my big bro tu tak penah naek kl tower..die lg eksaited dr sensei sy..haha ^_^v then deela join kami d klcc for lunch..(yg dbelanja oleh junior's parents..) da puas jalan2, kami g CM..after that, g makan kat kedai mamak..makan roti canai..nyum!! n kami dbelanja oleh deela plak..(kirenye byk jugakk makan free arini~hahaha)

then SABTU...hihi..eksaited sungguh sy di ari sabtu nie..byk ngat sbb..dr pagi, fetch che sue kat terminal seremban (dtg semata2 nak jupe kami..cyg che sue~)..around kol 10lebey, g klcc sbb plan ngan certain people nak jupe..punye laaa lambat budak2 nie, last2 me n che sue tggu kat secret recipe..baru laa encek izzal n cik fara dtg..

• me n che sue di secret recipe menunggu mereka..

but sy plak terpaksa berpisah ngan mereka sat sbb nak jumpa my very best friend..(5thn jugak laa tak jupa..eksaited laa jugak kann..apekan daya, si pakcik nie segan nak join budak2 japan nie..) 1st thing kami wat, kami g lunch(makan lagik? tadi kat secret recipe da makan..) memandangkan dia da kelaparan..so join je laa dia makan..lgpo0n die yg blanje =) after that, g jalan2 pusing satu klcc..tere kami, satu klcc kami da pusing, dr 1st floor until the last floor~ then sbb janji yg da tertunggak begitu lame, die ajak makan eskem..penin laa jugak nak carik kedai eskem kat klcc nie kann..last2 kami g makan eskem haagen dazs (sekali lagik, dia yg belanje..kenyang sy arini~) then die balik after makan eskem tu while sy join budak2 jad nie blk walaupo0n masih ade yg tak smp lagik..saba je laaa.. last2 kol 5, br aa kami semua berkumpul...sme skali 10 org ; me, che sue, izzal, fara, nida, azmir, hanum + pesot, maze n nagai..

• pesot, maze n izal..semangat tul mereka pilih makanan

• nida, fara (yg bz maen mazenye kamera), n hanum

• azmir n amirul..tensen duk ngan dorg..hahaha

mkn kat pizza hut dr kol 530 smp kol 730..lps bersurai, sy jupe my x-classmate ms d mrsmpc dulu kejap..6 thn kott tak jupe..huhu~ then balik seremban, malamnye g tgk midnite with 2 my senget uncle, my big bro, my sis, che sue, n shasha + 'boyfriend'nye (a.k.a her bro..suke2 ati je my uncle ckp her bro is her bf..huhu) lps tgk wayang, lepak n makan2 kat a&w..ni naseb je kuar ngan uncle2 nie..klu tak, jangan harap la nak melepak pagi2 bute..huhu..sungguh packed ari sabtu sy =)

ari ahad...da kne balik +_+ tammmoooooooo balikkkkk!! siyes perasaan tak puas duk mesia.. tp apekan daye...nak tanak, kne balik gakk T_T nway sempat laaa jupe my bestfriend, ain kat airport memandangkan die punye flight to ozzy po0n kol 930mlm..tak lame po0n kami berjupe..borak kejap jee..tak ilang rindu po0n +_+ blum sempat naek flight, sy da rindu family sy, rindu ain, rindu shasha, rindu chesue, rindu pakcik itu...tup2, lam flight sy menangis..haha..sengal tul~! da puas menanges, sy terlelap..huhu

ari senin..ape ade ngan ari senin? supposedly nakk g dai around tgh ari sbb smp dr narita pagi tu..but mengantuk giler laa..last2 terbabas tdo smp kol 4 ptg..then settle few things sat for the 'nite party'..hahaha~! nway, thanks yer kpd yg berkenaan sbb dtg..kurang sket rase homesick sy~ sungguhlaaaaa havoc biler bersama2 kamu nie..mcm2 cite tul biler ngan kamu2 nie..n not forgetting, to cik nabilla --> all da best dear..jgn risau, u can do it!! n dun forget, u always have us beside u!! chaiyokk~!! n again, thanks to all 4 lepak2ing n makan2ing...hihi..insyaAllah, ade mase kite jupe lagi ekkk..

p.s panjang tul sy membebel..sapa yg bace smp bawah nie, sy ucapkan thanks sbb sudi bace mende yg sy merapu nieee... n tatau knape, sy rase shiawase =P

sEbingkiS doA

Ya Allah, Seandainya telah Engkau catitkan dia milikku, tercipta buatku, satulah hatinya dengan hatiku, titipkan kebahagiaan antara kami...

Tetapi Ya Allah, seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan die bkn milikku, bawalah dia jauh dari pandanganku, luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku dan peliharalah daku dari kekecewaaan.

Serta Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku yg Amat Mengerti.. Berilah daku kekuatan, Sesungguhnya apa yg Engkau takdirkan adalah yang terbaik untukku..

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin~

sy yakin dengan janji Allah bahawa sesiapa yg berdoa padanya, pasti akan termakbul~ Jika ini salah satu ujian dari-Nya, maka tabahkan lah hati sy ini..Keringkanlah airmata sy ini dr terus mengalir..Jauhkanlah kekecewaan ini..Sesungguhnya hanya pada Engkau tempat ku meminta pertolongan...(もう2年経ったのに、忘れるなんてまだ出来てない。苦しい～！新しい人と出会うようにずっと祈っている)

my wEekenD~!

15 syaWaL 1428H (sabtu, 27hb oct 2007)

walaupo0n arini taufan, tapi tetap jua nak kuar..haha..da 2mg plan, so tanak aa kansel plan.. semlm my labmate tdo d umah..so sy just masakkan sumtin for her n cik hana (tetamu(?) tetap every week..hihi) lepak2 n borak2..then kami po0n tdo..next day, after sy msk breakfast around kol 12 me n mika (labmate) kuar g yokohama..cik hana menyusul kemudian..plan arini patutnye karaoke, bowling, sushi, window shoppin..but bowling kne kensel sbb angin kuat akibat taufan menyukarkan kami berjalan ke tpt bowling yg agak jauh dr station..pas karaoke, kami g makan sushi..wit cik hana skali..ade sorg tu, makan 6pinggan sushi n guess what?? 5 drpdnye adalah salmon mayonis aburi..hahaha..sengalnyehhh..(sapekah org tu? sepastinye bkn sy ngan mika :-P) pas makan, kami po0n stat window shoppin..(opss...window shoppin?? it was supposed to be window shoppin but guess girls just can't prevent themselves from shoppin..haha) da penat shoppin, kami po0n pulang ke pangkal jalan...

16 syAwaL 1428H (aHad, 28hb ocT 2007)

oPen house kak An!! yea yea..makan lagik..seronok2!! b4 hana balik, masakkan breakfast tuk die..(sy supposedly xleh makan byk sbb nak g open house nie..) 待ち合わせ ngan fae kat 高幡不動駅 b4 g umah kak An..sampai2 je, salam2 ngan mereka yg ade..then trus makan.. hihi.. menu arini : pulut kuning, rendang ayam, ayam masak merah, kari udang, nasik tomato, laksa penang, ketupat palas (sungguh laaa 気持ちいい ble bukak ketupat tu..huhu), cheese cake, agar2 buah dan mcm2 lagik..stat makan pulut kuning, ayam masak merah n rendang ayam...rendang ayam amat laaa 最高!! nyum2!! rehat sat, pastu makan nasik tomato plak ngan kari udang..pastu makan laksa..haha..mmg makan tak hengat nye aa..pastu berborak2 ngan mereka2 nie..ade 2 family yg tggl time tu, sonok maen ngan babies...(mmg dr kecik lagi suke pegang babies..sambil2 tu dapat2kan aura dr ibu2 nie..hehe) then kami bergamba beramai2 sblm org bersurai..saye ngan fae balik around kol 7..(sempat bergamba lagik with josei yg masih ade..) nway kak An, mmg best open house kak An..最高でした！！(not forgetting the invited chef, kak ina with najwa n bella to0..) thanks sbb menjemput kami nie ye (mcm sesat je sy ngan fae nie..ahaha) lenkali ajak laa lagi..hihi

n today (29hb oct), sy skang d lab..wat persediaan tuk presentation in middle of nov..cuak seyhh nak present lam english nie..present lam japanese po0n cam cuak gak..haha..wish me luck keyh!!

words 4 today : 何があっても生きていきます！(what ever happened, i'll survive!!)

opEn hOuSe rayE! yea yea~

8 syAwaL 1428H (sabtu, 20hb oCt 07)

yEa yEa!~ rayE sebulan...sonok2 sbb ade org wat open house raye..kenyang perut dkala weekend ^_^ arini girls JAD5 wat opEn house tuk budak batch 5 & 4.5 d tOkai..n memandangkan sy nie ahli tokai, so sec AUTO nye kami diajak sekali(mlm tu ade laaa tolong dorg sket2..)..makanan xyah ckp..menarik n tertarik..sedap dan menyedapkan..lame jugak lepak kat umah dorg nie..wat kat umah meija n fae, so skali skala duk umah meija, then g umah fae..lepak umah meija best sbb tak ramai org..(org malas naek tangge kott.haha) bile da menjelang malam, masing2 da tak btul da..bergamba xhengatnye aa..集合写真 mmg byk kali tangkap~! biler da kuar kamera power, digikame nie simpan je laa..n around kol 930mlm, sy ngan hana po0n beransur2 sbb da penat.. (tpkann sy rase sy makan sket je arini..nyesal tak makan byk2..) punca makan sket : kat umah sy n hana da breakfast da(breakfast apenye kol 1130..haha..tp kami da makan nasik kat umah..) nway JAD5 girls(fae, meija, ah, liana, bella, nala, wanie, kay), thanks kerana menjemput kami ke open house kamu2 ini..(JAD4 ade ke tak ek wat makan2 nie?hahahaha)

9 syAwaL 1428H (ahad, 21hb Oct 2007)

yea..open house lagikkk..kali nie kat mogusaen =) umah kak ina...kak ina ajak ramai org, so kami punye slot adalah stat kol 2ptg..hehe..(walaupo0n kami smp lambat..hihi) makanan arini po0n takyah ckp..byk giler n sedap woo0o0..ade laksam (my fav..laksam n laksa), ayam percik, lontong, rendang, acar, sambal sotong, mee bandung n byk lagikkk..but sy hanye sempat makan laksam(tambah 2kali..da kate sy nye fav..) nasik ngan ayam percik, kek2 tachis..rendang dorg kate pedas, so sy tarik diri awal2..hihi..pas makan, lepak2 n borak2 n bergamba...(perut da kenyang tp nak makan lontong..uwaaaaaa!) tp mmg best g umah kak ina nie..mcm raye kat mesia je..raye kat mesia po0n, makanan xsebanyak nie..syg kak ina ^_^v dan sy jua eksaited sbb sempat berjupe ngan seseorg setelah sekian lama tak jupe di umah kak ina nie.. nway kak ina, as always, ur foods are marvellous..thanks for inviting us~! lenkali ajak laa lagi tanpa bersempena ape2 po0n..hehehe

waaaaaaaaaaaa...tak saba nak balik umah makan nasik yg sy pau dari umah fae...opsss, pose2..jgn pk makanan!! ahahaha

3 aRi bertuRut...

mALam raYe 30 raMadhan 1428H (juMaat 12hb oCt)

malam raye kali nie wat kat umah sany ngan shah...start takbir lewat sket sbb masing2 ade class n lab..(so tak sempat nak menyiapkan juadah2 mlm ry awal2..) walaupo0n ahli tokai tahun nie sedikit je(around 14org kana..), sambutan malam raye tetap meriah.. makanan mmg heaven tak hengat laaa, walaupo0n masing2 bz ngan school..menu arini : nasik minyak, acar, rendang ayam, nasik impit, lemang, ketupat palas (segera je laa tapinye), satay + kuah kacang, popiah goreng, kek mocha(?) (adekah sy terlupe lg makanan lain?) .. lepas solat isya' n takbir, kami po0n makan sambil2 beramah mesra..haha.. borak2 n lepak2..(tu je laa yg mampu buat d malam raye..) n around kol 12 lebey, kami po0n bergamba beramai2..(ade org baru beli kamera laaa katekan..kamera ala2 pro gitu ^_^) bergamba mmg tak hengat nye laa..bape kali tangkap gamba da..pelbagai posisi plak tu..(gamba malam raye terakhir ngan bdk2 tokai batch 5 laa katekan...sob sob..sedey la plak..) after bergamba, belum sempat kami bersurai, oyasan datang..hihi..kne tegur sbb bising d kala tgh malam buta...

minna, お疲れ様でした！

rayE 1 syAwaL 1428H (sabtU 13hb oct 07)

kami tokai tachi, gerak same2 dr tokaidaigakumae eki around kol 722pg (yg sepatutnye kol 703pg..ade org lambat bgn..haha) smp embassy nak dekat2 kol 9 camtu..semayang raye then makan2~ spt biase, lepas makan mengumpul gamba2..giler giler gamba ^_^ then around kol 130 tgh ari, kami(me, fae, ah, liana, wanie, kak ina, bella with dansei tachi) po0n berangkat ke kediaman..best2, sbb ade 3 umah terbuke..but sempat g 2 buah rumah je..mane taknye, lepak kat umah encik jasri lama juga laa..nyum nyum..kenyang2.. baru terase spt raye bile g beraye nie.. then after that, kami po0n berangkat pulang..kononnye tak larat aaa nak jalan2, tp ble da smp shibuya, n baru kol 6 okkk..kami po0n plan g lepak2 kat kedai kopi..sungguh susah nak carik kedai kopi yg leh muatkan 12 org nie..last2 lepak kat 1st kitchen..huhu =) around kol 8, pulang laa kami..but yg tak bestnye, on da way nak balik, my perut sakit giler2...so terpakse stop kat one eki...balik2 umah pastu, rupenye ramai jugak yg sakit perut n mengalami keadaan yg same ngan saye--> tak sempat balik umah, stop kat mane2 leh stop..hahahaha.. kenangan d hari raye sungguh~! hihi

hari ke2 raye 2 syAwaL 1428H (ahaD 14hB oct 07)

kak iDa n abg nuar buat open hOuse arini ~ memule igt nak surrender sbb sakit perut masih tak ilang2..but alang2 org da ajak nie...takleh disia2kan..(basha po0n ade ajak gak, but sbb senpai tu da ajak lu...baget leh g 2-2 but sbb sakit perut, kami terpakse kuar dr umah lambat2..) kami(me, hana n fae) bertolak dr umah around kol 3 n smp around kol 430..mane taknye, tertinggal bas yg jarang2 ade tu..last2 terpakse ikut jalan jauh naek bas len..smp2 sane, ramai gak aa tetamu yg ade..yg saye knl, kak yin family je..hihi.. arini ade laksa penang (nyum..my fav tauuuu), nasi impit+ kuah kacang, lemang, rendang, n kuih raye yg sungguh byk(kak ida buat sendrik tau..)..lame gak lepak umah kak ida nie..smp kol 7..siap g lepak makan eskem kat baskin robins!(sempat jua shoppin satu beg..giler shoppin tol!!) hehe..smp umah around kol 9 kot..rehat2, n tuko2 gamba raye ngan budak2 nie..abeslaaa 2nd raye ku..(esoknyeee skolah..aiyokkk!! ilang trus mood raye..)

p.s rase nak pki baju kurung g dai..boleh dak? hahaha =P baru ade rase mood raye