さよならの一言

sayonara no hitokoto... tsurai kedo, sayonara!!

finally, i decided to let him go, away from my life~dunno y sy maseh tanak lepaskan die dulu..nearly 3years sejak die tgglkan sy n akhirnye sy decide nak lepaskan die dr hati sy, dr hidup sy~ sy tau ramai yg nasihatkan sy..suh sy lupekan die..berkali2 sy dengar ayat yg same..sy mengaku, he was my first love.. bkn senang tauu nak lupekan someone u called ur 1st love..(mase tulis nie po0n sy leh nanges..n trust me, this is my last tear for him!) Sy nak move on.. Sy tanak sia2kan my others 3year or 5years just wanting u to want me back.. sy tau seseorg itu takkan bace blog sy sbb die da lame lupekan sy, buang sy dr hidup die..which i was supposed to do the same thing.. Ya Allah, padamkan die dr ingatanku, dr hatiku dan peliharalah diriku ini dr kekecewaan.. sy da delete segala gamba yg die penah anta thru hset (yg slame nie sy simpan..), sy da delete segala history2 chat sy sejak sy knl die (yg sy terlalu syg tuk buang).. n sy nak lupekan last word yg penah die ckp kat sy which is 'penangan *die* lg hebat'.. relationship sy ngan die, terlalu complicated~ sy tak penah tau sy ni org ke3 until da day die kate words yg sy nak lupekn itu..sy jatuh n terluka~! jatuh smp tak berani + tak mampu tuk bangun kembali =( terluka yg tak pasti bila akan sembuh.. ye, sy amat marahkan die, amat bencikan die..tp tak penah sepatah perkataan marah, kutuk, hina sy lemparkan kat die...sy tak penah marah die sejak die tgglkan sy, n perasaan marah itu telah terkubur dlm hati sy.. sy byk menangis pasal die n he didn't even know.. sy tanak jadik sy yg lemah.. bkn senang tuk sy perolehi kekuatan ni..sy da decide tuk lupekan die, tuk lepaskan die..nearly 3years..nearly 3years..tanak da bazirkan mase.. i realized that i was the one who didn't want to let you go..and i also realized, i have to move on..i 'm big enough to realize that you weren't the one for me~

buat seseorg, sayonara~! thanks 4 everything..ur love (if it was ever there), everything u've done 4 me, being my 1st love..take care and i pray 4 ur happiness wherever u are~

ERASED!

*pada mereka yg tau kisah nie, doakan sy supaya sy mampu lupekan die, sy mampu lepaskan die..sy da mmg mahu move on.. please support me~!